Through the tears and smiles I have endured this week not knowing if I have the strength to face another day. Over the weekend I had known Monday would be a tough day, we had a burial of a close family friend. I didn’t know how one goes about to comfort someone who loses a parent or a loved one. Whilst I was busy fixating on this I didn’t know I would find myself in a similar position of losing a loved one. This ending week has been one filled with tears and smiles and a lot of courage to face another day.
Top Five Friday ~ Through the Tears and Smiles
For this week’s Top Five Friday through the tears and smiles, I am sharing the happenings of the ending week. Normally I try to focus on the good things but not to mean I don’t experience the bad I just don’t focus on them. This week is different, it’s been hard, so tough but it’s almost over.
Blenheim Palace is located in Woodstock Oxfordshire and for some reason I felt the urge to visit this place. I have always talked about being a #localtourist but not really done much of #localadventures. I didn’t know that I would need the peace, quite and calm that I experienced there to use throughout the week.
A birthday, burial and funeral – 3 in one happenings
Monday came in threes this week. It was my mother’s birthday and I had a bit planned for her special day. But I knew it was a tough day because we also had a burial for a close friend of the family. Just to make this day even more difficult we received the sad news that my dad’s older sister whose been fighting cancer for years had died. I will tell you think I didn’t and still don’t know how to process that. All I can do was be there for my parents and for the family friends at the burial. It has been a trying time, one that I won’t be forgetting fast.
Financial woes, as I said in my Debt Recovery Journey, family emergencies are also causes of people being in debt. As much as we try to plan for the future it’s not always enough and with the Monday woes it’s been absolutely chaos and to add-on I have university expenses and travel costs.
Education, another item adding to my ever-increasing debt is my post-graduate course. The week was tough enough without thinking about and attending school, it felt like torture but I know in the long run it will be useful.
Barcelona for the smiles
Practically everything this week has made me tear up in some shape or form. We couldn’t celebrate mum’s birthday because we had a burial to focus on, tears were shed. Then we heard about the death of my aunt from cancer and tears were shed again. I then looked at the impending school Fees, tears were shed because I am back in debt. I shed more tears when the dude cancelled our upcoming trip to Rome because he can’t get leave. At 5am this morning I got fed up of shedding tears and made myself smile. I did this by booking a few days alone in Barcelona.
Life sometimes truly sucks and if this week is anything to go by the unexpected loads on. I forgot to think about me and my needs, I almost gave someone else power over my happiness. So through the tears and smiles I am ending this week on a very happy note of Barcelona. And excited about the possibility of a better week next week.